“I pledge my commitment to the Blog for Mental Health 2014 Project. I will blog about mental health topics not only for myself, but for others. By displaying this badge, I show my pride, dedication, and acceptance for mental health. I use this to promote mental health education in the struggle to erase stigma.”
There is a great blogging site about all types of mental illness issues here called The Canvas of the Minds. It has many bloggers who deal with mental health issues daily–either because they are going through it, have gone through it, or know someone who is dealing with it. Regardless of the reasons they are there, they are inspiring and amazing and make those of us with mental health issues not feel so alone.
I have personally found some amazing people on there who are also dealing with Borderline Personality Disorder, and just knowing what they have achieved with their own illness really makes me feel like mine can be managed someday…even if today is not that day. While I wouldn’t wish this illness on anyone, I do like knowing that other people have dealt with the anger, frustration, helplessness, hopelessness and emotional cycles that I go through. I like knowing that there are people out there that I can look up to and be inspired by their struggles and stories and successes.
Mental health is an issue that needs to be taken seriously…whether you have your own issues or not. I know this has never really hit home as much as it has this year. When my BPD reared its ugly head and decided to take over my life four months ago in a very serious and detrimental way with the breakdown to end the farce that was my life up to that point, it really hit me hard that my parents shut me out when I needed them the most. I know they do not understand what is going on, and I know that they don’t really believe that mental disorders are a real, painful, harmful, and intense entity, but it still hurts nonetheless. Being told that I needed to get over it, suck it up, grow up, etc is/was not a pleasant experience for me…and sadly just inflated my abandonment issues to epic proportions. But as much as it hurts for them to leave me to deal with this alone—by not “coddling or encouraging me” as it was so eloquently put—I know I have to put that pain aside to deal with the very real issues that are sitting on my chest just waiting to crush me.
Honestly, allowing strangers to read and hear and see my pain has been much easier than I ever thought it would be. And for that, I thank you all.
Blogging for mental health means a lot to me in a lot of ways these days, and I hope that while being inspired now, I can eventually inspire others down the road. This journey I take is my own, I know this…..but it sure helps to know there are people out there who have my back–even if just in spirit!