I ask you, as the person I am dating, in casual conversation, how old you were when you lost your virginity and the answer is a vague, ” I don’t know, maybe around 16 or so.” Ok….. I then ask, ” ok well where did you lose your virginity?”. The answer is “I don’t remember.” Hmmmm. Really? Then I ask, “were you drunk? Do you know who you lost it to?” And the answer is, “I don’t know, why does it matter?
First off, we are dating, so I’m fucking curious about your life. It’s not like it happened when we were together so I’m not fucking accusing you of anything. So why is this such a big issue to NOT FUCKING ANSWER?????
So is it just me, or is the next thought that goes through your head……..”ummm ok then, what else are you not telling me or being honest about?”
Because, and this is just my opinion here, losing the V-card is usually kind of a big fucking deal in one’s life. Or even if it isn’t, seriously, who doesn’t remember it??? And I was just curious about it/you. Sheesh.
So now I’m kind of freaking out!
Exception: if it was a traumatic experience, I understand you wouldn’t want to discuss it. Fair enough, but have some decency to say, hey, it’s not something I’m ok talking about. Yes, I’ll be curious, but I’ll shut up and not push you about it.
Feedback people! I NEED feedback here. I need to know if I’m just an idiot blowing this out of proportion (which is 99% of the time) or if I need to ask some more serious questions…..to myself.
DISCLAIMER: I am on the girl brain train. (not having fun by the way! Which sucks cause I love trains) But I had enough sense to shut up right then and not make it worse. Hence me being all growed up and asking for help here……….
So pleeeeeeaaaasssseeeee help!
DISCLAIMER NÚMERO TWO: having slept, I now realize, even without the great feedback, that sometimes I’m a fucking idiot, but also that to some, this is a private matter to them regardless of the circumstances surrounding it. I realize I’m a ridiculously open book, unlike most people, and I shouldn’t expect everyone to just vomit their lives into me like I do them. Seriously, girl brain gives me the dumb. Kill it. Kill it with fire! I have issues. Seriously!
Thanks for listening and for the feedback. See???? I’m learning!!! I asked instead of losing my mind on him. Good Ron!!!!
Even though I’m still an asshole, it’s nice to know I’m learning. Baby steps!!!!!